What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

Disgusted with myself, nauseous and alone.

Am glad I didn't look until tonight what work has planned for me tomorrow. What a kick in the guts. I wish I hadn't eaten today if I knew what was required, if I can even accomplish it as I've tried before and am outweighed 4-1. But I am glad I looked now vs tomorrow morning. Geez. Disheartening, worrisome and problematic for me.

Sorry I missed the edit, ETA, mind you, I got a very nice compliment today, and unrelated made a new friend- 7'2" tall, hard to miss.

But also a friend did not return call to pass along info, and work is always dreaded.

I wish positive would not always be overshadowed. What I feel atm is, what's the point of any of this I guess?

Tinyflame said:

what's the point of any of this I guess?

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I have felt that plenty in the last year but I am still here and strong. Maybe I'll slip again. Point is it comes in waves and you will feel good again. Just keep going, writing here, doing what you should. Nothing is permanent. You'll feel better again.

Me: I feel angry and motivated

I am glad you are motivated @SeekingAfrica and I know you mean well.

Tinyflame said:

I am glad you are motivated @SeekingAfrica and I know you mean well.

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Weell... apparently it changes really easily with PTSD and triggers so you have my apology if I dismissed any of what you feel. All of it is valid.

I mean darn, took one person and my week all of a sudden feels impossible.
And I feel tired and sad.

Still got to snap out of it so I can work but nevertheless...

Relatively good

No apologies necessary @SeekingAfrica . I have kept mum through untenable situations and minimized them for longer than some people have been alive, and I fully get to some if they had to do the same it would be unfathomable. Sort of a tsunami vs a wave, but unless one's been there it's hard to grasp. How moments change lifetimes. But I do realize it can't be solved, so finding something else is the best I can try.

I am sorry you have been triggered. But as above I was thinking, I can work with a little, but not nothing. I am also not worth a lot, but maybe something. I don't choose for others but I must choose to the extent I can for myself. Even if it's only my thoughts or impressions and conclusions, and what my heart says, and that does not need to be shared when there is a lack of safety or respect or value for it. It's JMHO but even if I keep silent I still have one, that voice.

Right now, I’m feeling positive thank you, God and for my medicines

Heartbroken

Shame, lots of it, constantly. Sigh

Very angry because things NEVER work