What Is On Your Mind Right This Second?

Tinyflame said:

And all that is left to show for that, was nothing except the message that you are unlovable.

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They sound like right shitbags

Tinyflame said:

A waste of time, heart and emptiness

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Yes, they sound like they are!

Tinyflame said:

My Thanksgiving cactus decided to bloom, and red this time. Pink at Easter.

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Nice

Thank you always for your kindness @Teasel . Love to you. Well I guess I have to reframe it or forget about it. I feel badly thinking badly of others. And it isn't bad per se they didn't want a sister just their choice. Who knows maybe it's me. Plus does no good to focus on it.

Fair doos @Tinyflame if feeling badly towards them makes you feel bad, sorry, understand that. It just makes me sad that they make you feel so bad.

Much caring

The song The Death of Peace of Mind by Bad Omens.

Was thinking on the anniversary of his death that I am thankful that my dad could make a will 3 hours before the psycho knocked him off, or there would have been even worse repercussions.
Also was thinking I can't believe it: I don't doubt what I know and saw occurred, the basic actions I even limit it to; I know I can't doubt that no matter how hard I try and I've tried to for decades, but I just somewhere can't believe someone would do that. Why??

I think people do things that affect so many people with their one action; 1st and foremost the person of course and then so many others as a consequence.

ETA I suppose that's acceptance, really. It just is, it was, stuff like that can happen. Just never occurred to me it would happen then or to us.

Feeling strange. A mixed bag. Was thinking last sunday church I started to go to has a pretty good feeling within it, though beyond going not helpful. Then they said that day someone tried to burn it down last week. On tuesday heard sister's friend's son murdered 2 weeks ago, he was addicted. Horrified and sad. Have to contact life long friend who lost daughter one year ago. Strange new system at work to begin tracking every move but neglecting to acknowledge much time working. Not afraid of tracking as am there but oodles more ~paperwork for me. On thursday had day off but hail storm that I needed a shovel to remove. And string of very violent weather that scares me but also legitimately so with repairs needed. Need a particular type of contractor but seems overwhelming to find. Grateful however for some things and night of bad storm said one. Looked out to find 180 degree big rainbow and a double one. Getting 2 new neighbours. Guess there's more but I am pretty exhausted. Thankful. Hope not much more for storms as been constant for days. Was thinking of and missing Ladee at this moment. Maybe because she understood.

So many complex simple things.

Colourful clothes

I want to stay this happy for days if I can. Not analizing every single of my daily move is doing me great relief

How defensible positions were once castles on top of mountains, and now those are easy targets; hard targets are now lost within mountain ranges. Invisible from air.

Edmonton's goalie is so wound up he's got tics and twitches and bounces between plays. The press calls it dancing. In public he'd be treated the opposite for that. Proving you're laughing if you find your niche and screwed when you don't, even though you're the very same person.

My favourite men’s cologne… Bvlgari. The good scents thread.