the body was buried in the backyard of the house we lived in, which was in the worst part of town. I think i was 6 or 7. Well i dont know if she was the one who did it because my memories are blurry. I remember she kept the head in our freezer. She locked the freezer. One day i opened it anyways, the key was nearby. I was sneaky and left alone a lot.
This along with CSA memories are becoming very difficult for me to carry around. I know i didnt do anything done to me, but i think i internalized it so much, i feel like i am the bad guy.
I wish i could tell my therapist how suicidal it is making me, without fear she will hospitalize me.
I wish i could be hospitalized, but i have responsibilities. People in poverty dont easily get to go get help without losing everything..
This along with CSA memories are becoming very difficult for me to carry around. I know i didnt do anything done to me, but i think i internalized it so much, i feel like i am the bad guy.
I wish i could tell my therapist how suicidal it is making me, without fear she will hospitalize me.
I wish i could be hospitalized, but i have responsibilities. People in poverty dont easily get to go get help without losing everything..